Mimic of a Mind

I started making music in 6th grade (when I was 13 or so...). I created a track entitled, "What's Up With You", and it was pretty bad. I was new at the whole music-making hobby so I didn't even know what I was doing hardly at all. My brother Patrick (Mikeno Thug, Eagan Thug, Tricky P) made the beats for my first few songs and they became "hits" around my school. In other words, a lot of people knew of me, or atleast how badly I sucked at rapping.

My 9th grade year came, I was a freshman in highschool and I finished my first CD entitled "Livin' in da Suburbs". I have always hated the people who walk around the school thinking they are a gangster or that life is so rough for them so don't get the idea that I was trying to be black or "gangsta" then. I mainly made tracks and songs with titles like that because I was mocking the idea. Anyways, Livin in da Burbs, my hit track around the school got a lot of attention. I won't say it was a hit as in it was a good, quality track. I'll say it was a hit because it was about the typical kid who lives in the suburbs and you don't get many rappers making songs about that. It was also quite an entertaining track to listen to because it was interesting and somewhat funny.

After my first year of highschool and receiving all the attention that I craved, I moved on to my next CD. This one was called "Nuttin' But Net". Again, if you think I'm trying to be black, don't. I made fun of how badly I suck at basketball in the feature track "Nuttin' But Net" on that cd. I think compared to my first completed CD, this was actually a pretty well-made one. This included a song about people pissing me off because of their selfish needs (I Can't Take It), a song about meat (Meat), and a song about my careless attitude towards life and the line I live by "what are you gonna do?" (Well...). This was a good CD to me personally.

My 3rd CD I really enjoyed. It was entitled "EKLP" as a joke relating towards Eminem's "Marshall Mathers LP". This was created my sophomore year of highschool and I was inspired to make it by a few incidents that happened to me in the past. Everything depressing that I made a song about in this CD was basically from my life sucking so badly all because people. People are the lowest thing at times when it comes to self esteem. People can say things, do things, or even simply make looks that will make you wish you had a knife or gun to end all of your pain. This had a few very sad songs including Voices, Toys, and My World. They were all good to me. That CD also included Metal Head, a song about my likings of rap switching to my likings of hard rock and heavy metal and how people think that a rapper shouldn't listen to heavy metal. That just proves that people are ignorant and don't know the world if it chewed 'em up and swallowed 'em whole.

Finally, my junior year, my fourth CD was born. That was called "Thuggin' it Up" and I laughed SO hard after I decided on this title because I was doing it all just to be funny and just because I wasn't serious about my music anyway. I didn't care if other people thought I was trying to be a gangster. The thing is, and I'll say it again, I wasn't. Anyways, this was a very good CD to me too and it had tracks on there that just let out the dark side within me. I revealed to the world who I truly was with tracks such as "I Hate", "Highway to Fire", "Friend or Foe", and "Down the Tube". All four of these tracks are dark as Hell itself and they inspired me by how dark my life was at the time. I never got respected, had a lack of friends, and found very few people who cared about the music I was making. Everyone else just mocked it. I was sick of life and that was what inspired me to move on. A few months after that CD was created, near the end of the year, I made my first performance at my highschool during a homecoming dance. I got booed but I just kept on because that is when I started not caring what anyone thought of me... That was my rebirth.

The next year, my senior year of highschool, I created my hate-all-people shocker entitled "No Faith in Man". This was my true darkside that I had finally opened up to when I stopped giving a crap who liked it and who didn't. This was one of my best accomplishments just because this was when I finally found myself and when I finally had a healthy view of who I was, instead of hating my myself and others who hated me. I became a lot happier with the more angry music I made, believe it or not. I have created so many tracks on this CD that I absolutely love, including "Bleeding Heart", "Pretty Girl", "Land of No Forgiveness", and "Rock It". This was the beginning of my new image.

My next CD was created as the best musical piece I had ever developed enititled "Collapsed Earth". This song was full of love, hate, and just plain bizzare songs. Every song on this CD I think is the best work I had ever created besides "The Sin Within" which to this day I still don't know why I didn't just rerecord it... From making this CD, it filled me with the belief that I am good at what I do. Not only that but it reminds me of so many feelings I had within the past year. It was the first time I had ever learned to love...just by meeting one person. She was the first person to affect on how I looked at religion. I hated it until I met her. Love can very well affect religion but later on, I realized that I would rather be myself and not believe in something just because someone else does. Anyways, that was a major influence on this CD. Songs like "Through My Eyes", "So Proud", "I'm Happy", and "Another Day" bring back so many memories. This was also one of the first CD's I had a mix of a lot of different music styles starting from rap, going to rock, and even some electronic. I had a great variety in this CD. My senior party that year, I performed one of my favorite songs created by me, "When I Hit Record" and blew away half the audience watching. I had no bad feedback that night, the song I sung related severly to some of the people watching. People used to make me feel like absolute crap and then I would "hit record" and all my problems would vanish before my eyes as I was creating another song from my heart.

Finally, this past summer, I created a whole different style, genre, and musician of myself called "Mimic of a Mind". My first CD was self titled and a lot of these songs had a small portion relating to my first love. She inspired me to make very good music with more meaning rather than just dark, hate-everything music. I still had a dark side to me in this CD but it had a better meaning than some of my other stuff. This CD had tracks such as "Let's Take a Journey", "Away", "Magic Meadow", "Responsible", and "Pay Back" that seemed to get quite the attention after I gave these CD's away. I was definately happy with this.

That has been my life up until now. I am still working on music, going to school in college now, and even lifting weights. I have changed and grown up in so many ways within the past few years. It's crazy. Now you know what has inspired me to make such art my whole life. Have fun listening to my art.

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